powerful stuff

love is so powerful...

powerful enuf to motivate and to encourage someone to do something good and better for
himself/herself and even to others..

but...sometimes u have to oversee alll other things to know that ur love is pure and true and
transparent enuf

stand strong and beleive in urself..

is this what it mean it is?

i cant remember when i last updated this blog...few weeks ago i guess...

cant force to write when i dont feel to write..but maybe today i want to mumble a bit..

few weeks had been so wonderful to me..and am expecting to continue being wonderful..but there

is a pause i guess...

cant think what i did wrong..but at the end..i guess its me that made the wrong doing..

regardless what is the result...it is what it is..

have to accept what ever the result is..

just want that special someone to know what ever the ending will be...ill keep lovin u...like no 

one..

maybe will take years to overcome that feelings and maybe could not even....

i just dont know what to do..

it hurts...badly...felt like wanna cry...but no one could hear and see it...

better to keep it inside me...as always..keep it within me...approach my frenz like nothing happened..

thank god im far away from ppl that knew me...far away from reality...far away from others..

definately far away from true feelings..

let this fingers stop...let the tears stop...let the heart beat stop...but dont let love stops..

till then..

ta ta..

mumbling again...

its hard

damn...just few days came back to "the" deserted desert...

daily up to 50 deg outside..burnin my skin when walking...phew..but what to do its just work have to do what i have to do..

now its becoming harder everyday..

cant stop thinkin abt that someone...cant focus on my work.....sometimes i cant even breathe...

its hurts very2 bad but that feeling make me even stronger...did not ever been like this before..

beleive in myself....n try to make the very best

time to go

have to leave my place for a while...

change all mind settings for work not leasure...with this coming very very hot season..

hopefully not like last year...

been put on a strecher brought to the clinic by ert team...why?..coz i didnt drink enough water..

thats what they said...

i tot i did...but clearly..not enuf...

anyhow...work have to be done....n live must go on..

have to say bye2 to families...c ya next few months...

phew...very2 hard n berat to leave home...urgh...what to do...wish i cud find a job here..

near to everyone...n near to that someone...

dreams.....will come to i beleive...

beleive ur heart..n it will be real...

ta ta for now..

will update under the hot sizling sun later..

holiday or hellday?..

wow just came back from my holiday...

place was nice, food was nice, ppl was nice, activities were nice...everything was...

but when i do come back in real life...wow that was tiring...

dont know how long or till when ill be normal again n can start workin again...

n it hurts...really bad..not knowing what to do...what to say...no exact words to say..

that sucks...really sucks...

should i or shouldnt i speak out loud.....

should i or shouldnt i keep it inside me n keep hurting myself..

i dont know...

haha...but for sure my skin are tanner than before...n for sure few days from now

it will starts peeling..

yulks...like snakes peeling...but kewl maybe can make some handbags or belts or shoes...

few days more..then back to old days climbing up n down...sweating like hell...smell like urgh dont know how to express in words.....makes my shoulder ache....legs n knees pain...

but i love my job...for now i think..

have to search for different job n settle down..chill out...relax...but as my mother used to say,

tade rezki sekarang...apa yg ada balun aje cukup2...asalkan piok nasik tak kosong...

thats my mum...dont run away from humps just go over it...

later...ta ta

it hurts

darn...daily update for the time being i guess...

it hurts...awesome but it hurts...quite some time not feeling like this...butterfly in my stomach?...really?...

maybe its just my chemical and atomic glitch...or not...just time will tell..

ta ta for now..

trons with gadgets

tday lepak with new friends...n quite surprising la..young boys with big toys that costs big bucks..

still remember when i bought my first slr...phew cost me a fortune n took me years to save money for that..but these guys, with latest model n new lenses...

maybe they trade gold..thats why they can afford it..

anyhow...its good to see n know some new faces, learn a lot today..not from the gadgets but from those young boys...

when passion is there...anything can and will overcome anything..money?..just part of it...

be cool guys..n keep searching until u find what u really want..for me?..i just want piece..

haha...darn im bored today..need to spice up my life a bit..

lets see.....

hurm...its been a while since i last blogged...

somehow maybe its time for me to update my blog...if anyone is lookin at..

so here goes...will do when feels to..

ta ta