Love of my life..part 1

ha ni nak cite sket..camne aku jatuh cinte..jatuh kedebuk pnye..
so mana tau dah tua2 sok...macam la skang ni tak tua..anyhow...masa tu nanti
leh baca balik..camne aku jatuh cinte...leh la nostalgia sket2...
n bleh baca dgn org yg aku jatuh cinte gak dulu...masa tetua nanti..

ok la..camni mula2 dia...time tu aku baru balik dari cuti..
ye la keje kuli kat negara org kan..so balik cuti nak la lepak2...

ha nak cite sket time aku balik tu...balik ok la..from auh to doh...transit several mins..
then doh to kul...dah la lapa time tu..
naik2 aje from doh..dpt la makan...ada ke dia nak sumbat aku mcm2 pnye makanan..
dah mkn tu..nak bg ni..then bg lagi..last2 desert aku ckp tamo..tau la service bagus..
tp jgn la telampau bagus..ok then tgk tv..aku memang taleh nak tido dlm flight...
so tgk la tv...n dah nak sampai ni..kol 8 pagi...prut dah lapa..
tunggu pnye tunggu..tade bekpes...pahtu aku tanya la bekpes ku mana..
dia ckp dah nak turun..dia ingat aku tido..
apa la..td pnye la bnyk tanya nak makan apa..tp bile nak bekpes tak lak tanya nak mkn apa..
dah sah2 aku tgh tgk tb...malas nak keje la tu agaknye..

ha dah tepesong kat situ lak dah..

ok sambung balik..sampai je key el...
time tu memang flat gile2 la...naik kete...ha dpt bawak kete myvi baru..
pnye la susah bwk myvi baru..sbab fly by wire...electronic bkn rack n pinion pnye handle..
anyhow...several mins...dpat la biasakan diri..

dlm kete..cite2 la ngan my big bro..
dia ckp..ha jumaat ni ada get together gether kat afamosa melaka..jom ikut skali..
aku orait aje...tp pk balik..aku bkn rapat sgt2 ngan geng2 tu..
biasa2 aje...nak lepak satu malam....tepk gak apa aku nak buat..

rasa cam tamo pegi..tp dok kl tade apa nak buat...tp nak lepak ngan my bro n his frens..
so timbang pnye timbang kiri kanan....last2 decide pegi la kan..

ha that day..lpas jemaat..lepak kat kedai kopi..
then ptg tu amik besday boy..not boy pon..bapak org dah..
n off to fomosa..

dlm kete ada la tanya sapa ada..depa ckp la..org2 biasa...tp ada sorang yg aku tak kenal katanye..
oo ye ke...tak pe la...tak kenal leh buat kenal2..
dia ckp pompuan....ok la..pompuan...so nanti la jumpa leh tgk..

then masuk afamosa...sesat..pusing sana sini tak jumpa..
tp last2 jumpa gak...park kete..turun kete..turun barang...n isap gokok sket..
nak masuk rumah tak kenal sume2 org..

tuan rumah dok kat lobi...n cite2 ngan kita org..ckp bbq dah ready..jap lagi kita masak..
orait la kan...soh kita org masuk...ok pass barang..masuk la dlm rumah..

kat luar terang..kat dlm rumah gelap...
so masuk rumah take few secs jgak la nak biasakan mata ni..

tgk lalu je kat living room..ada dapor...dpn dapor ada somebody diri..

OMG....tgk aje alamak trus camne nak cite tatau la...just rasa dia ni ke org ckp geng baru..

mula2 tgk sbnarnye tak nampak sgt muka...sbab masih blur luar terang dlm gelap..
tgk aje fuh...trus hati ter jatuh..gedebuk...
rasa macam ada benda berlaku dlm hati ni...tp tatau apa yg tejadik..

sepanjang2 idup 35 taun..tak penah rasa macam ni...tak tau apa berlaku..
dulu ada gak bermakwe2 ni..tp first time rasa macam tu...apa yg jadik tatau..
so jalan la trus..letak beg...

nak pegi luar rumah ada pool n tgk bbq...kawan aku nye wife ckp la..ha ni my kazen...
n she just look at me..n ckp "hi acat"..n ask for a handshake...

wow!!...handshake!!!...hati debar2 ni...tp control macho...n shake la tgn..n ckp "hi" back...

masa handshake tu...erm rasa cam kene electric shock..right to my heart...wow first time rasa gitu..
tp kene la control macho..n malu lak tu...trus aje lepas tgn..n kluar p kat pool.

fuh gile la time tu...rasa sgt2 malu n at the same time interested sgt2 nak ckp dgn dia..

ha kluar la kat pool..lepak2....dia duduk la kat the side of the pool...main i pad dia..
ish dia ni..main ipad aje...aku nak cite2 dgn dia ni..tp malu pnye pasal..
so aku p la amik kamera aku...main2 dgn camera..
dah la time tu malam...tak pandai pakai flash dgn camera...puas amik gamba dia tp sumenye blur..tensen gile time tu..
try2 ..tak jadik..ah sudah la letak balik kamera..
dok balik kat pool..

bbq dah masak..dia ni dah stat makan ayam...n dok dkat2...offer ayam..
waduh..nak aje aku makan trus ayam tu...
tp sbab malu pnye pasal..ckp tak pe..later amik sendiri..

waaa...bodoh gile time tu..patut ckp thanx aje n amik..tp ish..apa la kan..mixed feeling macam mixed fruit..
padahal diri sendiri lapa....ha last2 sendiri2 la amik ayam n makan..
n dok kat other side of the pool...stillllll tgk2 kat dia tu..
dia dgn kazen dia...

taleh jadik ni..kene gak ckp..n tgk dia ada amik plastik isi coklat..
ha chance!!!...lalu dpn ckp try la ceklat ni...
dia bleh ckp pulak ceklat mana yg bes...wow!!...conversation...
carik2 tp ceklat yg ku suke tade...so tepaksa la ckp yg bes da tade...

n back to my seat at the other end...adeh kejap aje ckp2 dgn dia..
pahtu dia main fb...ha aku ckp la tgk apa tu..sume2..dia mintak akunye fb..
soh dia search fbku...tp memang tak jumpa la kan..sbab memang buat org lain taleh nak search..
tak suke org2 yg tak kukenal tgk fb...fb is for my close friends n ppl that knew me only..
carik2 tak jumpa..

ingat nak putus asa time tu...tp ckp la..if i can search u then bleh la..
time tu jugak login kat ipad dia..n carik her nick name..n add...

wow!!...dah add..tp aku tade intenet nak tgk dia nye page..ish2..
tak bes tui...so tgk la dia dari jauh lagi...

then at one time dia ilang..mana ni.rupa2nye dia masuk dlm mandi n cleaned herself..
ish time tu soo lonely sbb tadapat tgk dia..

n after that dia kluar pakai baju katun2 n legging kaler klabu...wow how sweet...how cute...how adorable..
makin la aku suke..makin la aku rasa nak lebih kenal...tp owh my..malu sgt2..

one time dok kat dpn tv...dia dok atas sofa...
sblh aku..apa lagi...ada camera...snapshot!!!...main snap aje...
tak setting btul2...tp rupa2nya...the best setting ever...

love that shot..sampai skarang its the best shot ever...love that look..love that hair...love that gedikness..
n i fell in love with her...

tgh malam tu...dia dah masuk tido..

i felt like..oh my....my heart gone empty..
like someone just took it from me..

tp sbab dgn kawan2...so tepaksa la ckp2 dgn kawan..

tp dlm ati..i was sooooooooo lonely...i nak ckp2 dgn dia..
nak lepak2 dgn dia..nak kenal dia..

n mula sakit..it hurts missing her...it hurts badly..
asik2 ingat..asik2 ingat...

tp tu la..tade gamba dia dia..just gamba dlm kamere..
tu pon bkn dia sorang...so tgk aje la dlm kamere..

baru la aku tau that was love...my love at first sight..

tak penah rasa macam ni...it hurst badly...i like her soo bad...
fell in love...

n the person that i fell in love is...
 

jeng jeng jeng...tak tau her full name after quite some time..

tp bile dpt tau full name...suke sgt...

i love u so much

i love who u r..i love all of u...mungkin ada org pnah ckp gitu..
tp im me..i want to be me..

n i nak bg tau..that i love all of u...

im deeply...deeply in love..

fuh first time tulis blog ini macam..

tak pe next time ada part 2...n 3..n dunnow how many parts...

but it will keep coming...

wow..i miss her..hahaha...masa tulis ni pon missing her badly..

hope cud meet her n hug her now...tp im thousand miles apart..
so tgk aje her pics..n baca balik her mails..

i love u syg...